Ever been disappointed?

I claimed victory in life disappointments during my quiet time today. For those of you non-Christians who doesn't know what claiming victory meant, it means accepting the fact that you have won, in the line of defeat. It's something that I don't always pray for but I had huge expectations of everyone living around me. I am disappointed with myself eventually, putting a lot of blame in the self, looking at angles and things, the way it turned out, I am seemingly convinced that I have failed miserably in this simple thing called ;

r-e-l-a-t-i-o-n-s-h-i-p-s.

The failure in relationships brought back the fear. The fear of seeing people you love saying/doing things which is hurtful, the misery of knowing your relationship is not going to work out, the irony of not even knowing what to say when things goes wrong when you exactly know what need to be done. It is somehow difficult to start one again after letting go of another. I am extremely poor at all sort of things involving relationships. Easily broken, slow to heal.

Something has got to change, somewhere. Either I stop blaming myself for everything which went wrong, learn not to get hurt too easily and shift the blame at something else. Or maybe it's the expectations I had. No expectations, fewer disappointments? It is that simple isn't it?

Ever been disappointed?